wonderland?

I found myself in Wonderland..


This day I'm just thinking of that song. That's not a newest song, 'though, but this is still a great song by Avril Lavigne. Full of fantasy....kind of music I love. :)


And I'm not really freaked when I see the video clip, bcz that's what I used to think of a wonderland. the rabbit, the tree, the chess, and pplz in pokerface. I usually use 'pokerface' for the 'joker-looks-alike' make-up.. yap they're the most things I remember for the clip. 


The song is so creepyy.. and I imagined what if I were in the real wonderland.. 
I freaked out and panic, while I ran all the way to find the way out but what I was seeing was only a 'dead-trees' and a gothic scene.. Then I saw a big dinner table and a 'pokerface man' standing and welcoming me with a creepy-friendly face. Then I ran away.....
Playing piano..... hey that's Avril's video clip! :P


But I have been in that condition sometimes in my dreams, and it looks so REAL. I couldn't wake up but finally I went out..from thatt..scary dream. -,- 
Do we have our own wonderland beneath our mind?? I think so. 
If you want to, then ur goin' down the hole, entering the door to the WONDERLAND!
Have a nice dream! 

my words for today

"If I know something, 
I know it may hurts but
I know I will not suffer."


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Intro :
I was using my "Eye Therapy Glasses" before I use my usual glasses. And my eyes are much better now.


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I feel curious today. There's so much that I don't know and there's a pile of questions that I really want to be answered. I'm still regretting that I couldn't find out the answer or what should I do to have the answer. I'm still regretting that I couldn't ask them by myself to get a clear answer. There's too much thing that I shouldn't know, but they're so important to me.. and that reminds me of something. 
This curious fills my head immediately, and directly my heart feels so anxious. I can't stop thinking what is the meaning of 'something that I'm thinking about'. 


..It's a bit confusing but I can't write the details. :P


My head's full of words "Could it be..?" and "It couldn't be." . Honestly I know something that it couldn't be. I perfectly know it. :P 


If I'll have a chance to know the answer, I won't care of the burden. :P
I just want to know. 




(It's NOT a dramatic post that I want to give to anyone)

The Loved Ones

Tonight 
I've realized
They're my beloved ones
They're all that I'm living for
and I cant forget them

But what will I do, if the time has come?

They're the parts of me

Pieces of me

If they gone away

I'll gone away too,

I should thank God tonight

Because now is still tonight

I don't want the time passes so fast

Before I sleep I hope I'll see tomorrow

Because I'll see my beloved ones

But I don't want to see tomorrow

As the days change, we're gonna be separated

I'll never have them forever

I'll lose them somehow, someday, somewhere

But when I lose my beloved ones,

I still have the only one,

That's You

God. 

Evanescence- "Good Enough"

I do love Evanescence and I do love Amy Lee so much. I love most of their songs (I have many of them but not all of Evanescence's songs) Amy Lee is so beautifull.. and she has awesome voice, and sounds angelic. She is also a pianist. And her arrangements drown me into the song. Her piano playing are beautiful as her voice. And as a learner of playing piano, I want to learn her songs. 

Their genre is alternative rock , and their style is gothic. Somehow I don't really like gothic style but I love the costumes and I love their own gothic style. 

I lovvee their music videos and one day I saw the making of the video. 

They're so awesome.. :) one of them, that makes me startled is "Good Enough" video.

The first time I saw this video, I thought the flames are just a camera tricks. 
But they're so real.. and the equipments look burned.. 
i thought that was an amazing camera tricks bcz they're so evidence. 
Then I watched the making of the video.

And I was surprise when I know "Hey, they're really burned up! 
and the shooting location was really on fire O_O 
and amazingly Amy Lee was in the middle of fire, playing piano. 
That's so cool... Then the rain began to fall, that was the dramatic scene.. 
wow I love this. "

welcome to the new 'me'

No, it's not the new 'me'

It's about my new blog.

I've changed whole things of it.

The url, (from agirlnamed-dzikrina to alightwithindarkness)

Why?

Because I like that name! and I wish I'll always be a pure person even if I surrounded by bad peoples. 

And from that name, I tried to find the other blogskins to be suitable for the title. And I've been looking for a cool and dark skin.

And finally I've found it and it's (almost) as what I've wanted so far. Now I love this skin-but I'll keep searching for the better skin for my blog, bcz my blog tells about me. and my favorites. :)

Please comment my new blog and the entries (if i just have comment boxes for my entries -,-) but I can solve that.. I'll soon put a tagboard into my blog and you can comment me as you like about my blog and my entries. 

Why don't I just put it now? bcz it's already 11 PM and I'm not on my bed. 

But in a reason, I don't know why there is no one commands me to sleep.

But now, they don't have to command me.. 

Because.........hoahm 

I'm getting bed now...on my own.........hoahm 

Bye!! :)

good enough

Under my spell again
I can't say no to you
Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand
I can't say no to you


Shouldn't let you torture me so sweetly
Now I can't let go of this dream
I can't breathe but I feel


Good enough
I feel good enough for you


Drink up sweet decadence
I can't say no to you
And I've completely lost myself and I don't mind
I can't say no to you


Shouldn't let you conquer me completely
Now I can't let go of this dream
Can't believe that I feel


Good enough
I feel good enough
It's been such a long time coming
But I feel good


And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall
Pour real life down to me
'Cause I can't hold on to anything


This good enough
Am I good enough
For you to love me too?


So take care what you ask of me
'Cause I can't say no

Breathe No More

I've been looking in the mirror for so long
That I've come to believe my soul's on the other side
Oh, the little pieces falling, shatter
Shards of me too sharp to put back together
Too small to matter but big enough to cut me
Into so many pieces if I try to touch her


And I bleed, I bleed
And I breathe, I breathe no more


Take a breath and I try to draw from my spirits well
Yet again you refuse to drink like a stubborn child
Lie to me, convince me that I've been sick forever
And all of this will make sense when I get better
I know the difference between myself and my reflection
I just can't help but to wonder which of us do you love


So I bleed, I bleed
And I breathe, I breathe now
Bleed, I bleed and I breathe
I breathe, I breathe, I breathe no more