wonderland?

I found myself in Wonderland..


This day I'm just thinking of that song. That's not a newest song, 'though, but this is still a great song by Avril Lavigne. Full of fantasy....kind of music I love. :)


And I'm not really freaked when I see the video clip, bcz that's what I used to think of a wonderland. the rabbit, the tree, the chess, and pplz in pokerface. I usually use 'pokerface' for the 'joker-looks-alike' make-up.. yap they're the most things I remember for the clip. 


The song is so creepyy.. and I imagined what if I were in the real wonderland.. 
I freaked out and panic, while I ran all the way to find the way out but what I was seeing was only a 'dead-trees' and a gothic scene.. Then I saw a big dinner table and a 'pokerface man' standing and welcoming me with a creepy-friendly face. Then I ran away.....
Playing piano..... hey that's Avril's video clip! :P


But I have been in that condition sometimes in my dreams, and it looks so REAL. I couldn't wake up but finally I went out..from thatt..scary dream. -,- 
Do we have our own wonderland beneath our mind?? I think so. 
If you want to, then ur goin' down the hole, entering the door to the WONDERLAND!
Have a nice dream! 

my words for today

"If I know something, 
I know it may hurts but
I know I will not suffer."


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Intro :
I was using my "Eye Therapy Glasses" before I use my usual glasses. And my eyes are much better now.


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I feel curious today. There's so much that I don't know and there's a pile of questions that I really want to be answered. I'm still regretting that I couldn't find out the answer or what should I do to have the answer. I'm still regretting that I couldn't ask them by myself to get a clear answer. There's too much thing that I shouldn't know, but they're so important to me.. and that reminds me of something. 
This curious fills my head immediately, and directly my heart feels so anxious. I can't stop thinking what is the meaning of 'something that I'm thinking about'. 


..It's a bit confusing but I can't write the details. :P


My head's full of words "Could it be..?" and "It couldn't be." . Honestly I know something that it couldn't be. I perfectly know it. :P 


If I'll have a chance to know the answer, I won't care of the burden. :P
I just want to know. 




(It's NOT a dramatic post that I want to give to anyone)