wonderland?

I found myself in Wonderland..


This day I'm just thinking of that song. That's not a newest song, 'though, but this is still a great song by Avril Lavigne. Full of fantasy....kind of music I love. :)


And I'm not really freaked when I see the video clip, bcz that's what I used to think of a wonderland. the rabbit, the tree, the chess, and pplz in pokerface. I usually use 'pokerface' for the 'joker-looks-alike' make-up.. yap they're the most things I remember for the clip. 


The song is so creepyy.. and I imagined what if I were in the real wonderland.. 
I freaked out and panic, while I ran all the way to find the way out but what I was seeing was only a 'dead-trees' and a gothic scene.. Then I saw a big dinner table and a 'pokerface man' standing and welcoming me with a creepy-friendly face. Then I ran away.....
Playing piano..... hey that's Avril's video clip! :P


But I have been in that condition sometimes in my dreams, and it looks so REAL. I couldn't wake up but finally I went out..from thatt..scary dream. -,- 
Do we have our own wonderland beneath our mind?? I think so. 
If you want to, then ur goin' down the hole, entering the door to the WONDERLAND!
Have a nice dream! 

my words for today

"If I know something, 
I know it may hurts but
I know I will not suffer."


~~~ooo~~~~ooo~~~~ooo~~~


Intro :
I was using my "Eye Therapy Glasses" before I use my usual glasses. And my eyes are much better now.


~~~ooo~~~


I feel curious today. There's so much that I don't know and there's a pile of questions that I really want to be answered. I'm still regretting that I couldn't find out the answer or what should I do to have the answer. I'm still regretting that I couldn't ask them by myself to get a clear answer. There's too much thing that I shouldn't know, but they're so important to me.. and that reminds me of something. 
This curious fills my head immediately, and directly my heart feels so anxious. I can't stop thinking what is the meaning of 'something that I'm thinking about'. 


..It's a bit confusing but I can't write the details. :P


My head's full of words "Could it be..?" and "It couldn't be." . Honestly I know something that it couldn't be. I perfectly know it. :P 


If I'll have a chance to know the answer, I won't care of the burden. :P
I just want to know. 




(It's NOT a dramatic post that I want to give to anyone)

The Loved Ones

Tonight 
I've realized
They're my beloved ones
They're all that I'm living for
and I cant forget them

But what will I do, if the time has come?

They're the parts of me

Pieces of me

If they gone away

I'll gone away too,

I should thank God tonight

Because now is still tonight

I don't want the time passes so fast

Before I sleep I hope I'll see tomorrow

Because I'll see my beloved ones

But I don't want to see tomorrow

As the days change, we're gonna be separated

I'll never have them forever

I'll lose them somehow, someday, somewhere

But when I lose my beloved ones,

I still have the only one,

That's You

God. 

Evanescence- "Good Enough"

I do love Evanescence and I do love Amy Lee so much. I love most of their songs (I have many of them but not all of Evanescence's songs) Amy Lee is so beautifull.. and she has awesome voice, and sounds angelic. She is also a pianist. And her arrangements drown me into the song. Her piano playing are beautiful as her voice. And as a learner of playing piano, I want to learn her songs. 

Their genre is alternative rock , and their style is gothic. Somehow I don't really like gothic style but I love the costumes and I love their own gothic style. 

I lovvee their music videos and one day I saw the making of the video. 

They're so awesome.. :) one of them, that makes me startled is "Good Enough" video.

The first time I saw this video, I thought the flames are just a camera tricks. 
But they're so real.. and the equipments look burned.. 
i thought that was an amazing camera tricks bcz they're so evidence. 
Then I watched the making of the video.

And I was surprise when I know "Hey, they're really burned up! 
and the shooting location was really on fire O_O 
and amazingly Amy Lee was in the middle of fire, playing piano. 
That's so cool... Then the rain began to fall, that was the dramatic scene.. 
wow I love this. "

welcome to the new 'me'

No, it's not the new 'me'

It's about my new blog.

I've changed whole things of it.

The url, (from agirlnamed-dzikrina to alightwithindarkness)

Why?

Because I like that name! and I wish I'll always be a pure person even if I surrounded by bad peoples. 

And from that name, I tried to find the other blogskins to be suitable for the title. And I've been looking for a cool and dark skin.

And finally I've found it and it's (almost) as what I've wanted so far. Now I love this skin-but I'll keep searching for the better skin for my blog, bcz my blog tells about me. and my favorites. :)

Please comment my new blog and the entries (if i just have comment boxes for my entries -,-) but I can solve that.. I'll soon put a tagboard into my blog and you can comment me as you like about my blog and my entries. 

Why don't I just put it now? bcz it's already 11 PM and I'm not on my bed. 

But in a reason, I don't know why there is no one commands me to sleep.

But now, they don't have to command me.. 

Because.........hoahm 

I'm getting bed now...on my own.........hoahm 

Bye!! :)

good enough

Under my spell again
I can't say no to you
Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand
I can't say no to you


Shouldn't let you torture me so sweetly
Now I can't let go of this dream
I can't breathe but I feel


Good enough
I feel good enough for you


Drink up sweet decadence
I can't say no to you
And I've completely lost myself and I don't mind
I can't say no to you


Shouldn't let you conquer me completely
Now I can't let go of this dream
Can't believe that I feel


Good enough
I feel good enough
It's been such a long time coming
But I feel good


And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall
Pour real life down to me
'Cause I can't hold on to anything


This good enough
Am I good enough
For you to love me too?


So take care what you ask of me
'Cause I can't say no

Breathe No More

I've been looking in the mirror for so long
That I've come to believe my soul's on the other side
Oh, the little pieces falling, shatter
Shards of me too sharp to put back together
Too small to matter but big enough to cut me
Into so many pieces if I try to touch her


And I bleed, I bleed
And I breathe, I breathe no more


Take a breath and I try to draw from my spirits well
Yet again you refuse to drink like a stubborn child
Lie to me, convince me that I've been sick forever
And all of this will make sense when I get better
I know the difference between myself and my reflection
I just can't help but to wonder which of us do you love


So I bleed, I bleed
And I breathe, I breathe now
Bleed, I bleed and I breathe
I breathe, I breathe, I breathe no more

hehhehe

Sekarang saya mau pake bahasa indonesia dulu.Nah.... hari ini benar" cukup menyenangkan..........hehe. Pertama, kita akan ada assembly! kedua, film kita buat assembly sudah jadi! Ketiga, filmnya bagus! Ya... berkat Nanda, Oline, dkk yang sangat hebat dlm membuat film...hehe. Aku kbagian jd ilmuwan..sorry aku kurang membantu.... :D


Trus......pelajaran tdk ada yg sangat membuat bosan. Karena yg pake buku cuma pelajaran Sains dan Sosial (tok). Hari Kamis adalah hari terenak di dlm seminggu,karena pljrn yang pake buku hnya dua, trus karena ada MUSIC, PE dan COM, (yg g pake buku semua :p) dan karena besoknya adalah Jum'at, yaitu hari terakhir di sekolah..... :) 


Nah..trus bagian yang heboh tapi memalukan tu pas pulang sekolah....
Seperti biasa, kita naik bis... nah setiap kita naik bis, kita selalu rebutan kursi di belakang, karena om yang nyupirin bis adalah "Om Lompat". Maksudnya, om itu adalah om yg bisa kita ajak kompromi untuk 'lompat'....hm begini maksudnya 'lompat' itu. 


Di perhabisan Jl.Bambu, ada jalanan yang tidak rata dan akhirnya agak mirip dengan police line, Kalau bis itu ngebut maka bis akan melompat. Dan bila bis melompat maka kita juga lompat.. itulah yang seru.. Makanya kita(yang cewek dan cowok) selalu berebut kursi belakang, karena kursi belakang adalah tempat ter-enak ketika 'lompat'. 


Kemarin, Bram yang anak bambu( tinggal di Jl.Bambu) blum turun bis hanya untuk merasakan yang namanya "lompat" itu. Ternyata..nggak lompat. Nah besoknya, akhirnya dia ga mau ikut lompat. Ternyata, bisnya lompat dengan sangatt tinggi. Padahal Bram adalah salah satu anak yang rebutan kursi belakang....hehehe. hanya menceritakan, tdk ada maksud :D


Nah, lagu yang disetel di bis juga 'indah' sekali :D. Lagunya adalah dangdut..akhirnya anak" kelas 8 di bis pada dangdutan semua.. :)) Dan jogetnya Alifia , Tiara dan Bambang sangatt lucu dan menjiwai.. :D (hanya menceritakan, tdk ada maksud :D) Akhirnya aku ketawa terbahak-bahak..hehe..


Lagu dangdut yang paling kita senangi di bis adalah "Malu Malu dong" dari T2 yang udah diimprovisasi jadi dangdut. Akhirnya, ketika bis sudah cukup sepi, kita langsungg.. nyanyi" lagu itu keras", dan sambil joget".. yang nyanyi lagu itu adalah Tiara, Dilla, Alifia, dan aku.. dan Bambang ikut mensupport dng joget" dan sebagainya..hehehe


Bis itu sangat heboh dan sangat ramai hanya dengan 6 orang (karena ada Nanda juga). Tapi benar" seru.. hehehe..


Iya..itulah kisah seru kita di bis.. hehehe..dan juga kisah seru saya di hari ini..
Ohya..yang ikut Karate sekarang sudah mulai serius, dan akan berusaha, karena kita jg ingin ikut ujian kelulusan sabuk se-provinsi. Mudah"an persiapan kita cukup, dan kita bisa ikut ujian.. Amiin..


maaf dari nama" yang aku sebut, kalo itu memalukan tolong dimaafkan, karena sy hanya menceritakan..hehhee :D

october

I can't run anymore,
I fall before you,
Here I am,
I have nothing left,
Though I've tried to forget,
You're all that I am,
Take me home,
I'm through fighting it,
Broken,
Lifeless,
I give up,
You're my only strength,
Without you,
I can't go on,
Anymore,
Ever again.


My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love. 


I can't run anymore,
I give myself to you,
I'm sorry,
I'm sorry,
In all my bitterness,
I ignored,
All that's real and true,
All I need is you,
When night falls on me,
I'll not close my eyes,
I'm too alive,
And you're too strong,
I can't lie anymore,
I fall down before you,
I'm sorry,
I'm sorry.


My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love.


Constantly ignoring,
The pain consuming me,
But this time it's cut too deep,
I'll never stray again.

broken

I wanted you to know that I love you the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph, I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain


'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel light when you're gone away


The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal you pain


'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel light when you're gone away


'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel light when you're gone away


'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone
Gone away, 
You don't feel me here anymore

my mangas part 2

Yaa.. 
bentuk hasil coba" saya ini.... tp sy sudah sekuat tenaga membuatnya :(( 
Tapi hasilnya msh jelek sih.. maklum masih BELAJAR. Hehehe.. 
P.S : Please comment my drawings, it would be helpful if you gimme some critical and suggestion. I'm waiting :)

The drawings' description:

1)A Fairy

2)The closer scene of no.1

3)Temari (Naruto)

4)Sakura Haruno (Naruto)

5)Naruto Uzumaki (Naruto)

6)The Bestfriends' memory

7)Marina (My original character)

8)Iris (My original character, 'though I tried to copy Athena's style)

The bad drawings created by: Dzikrina Nurunisa

2009-February 2010

My Mangas

Hey... 
Finally I've done what I wanted.. 
Here are some of my drawings, actually there are so many of my drawings, and they're so BAD 
so I upload some of them, which were the best I can do,  but they're still BAD. -,- bcz I'm not really good in drawing. 


P.S : Please comment my drawings.. It would be helpful if you gimme some critical and suggestion. ex: Too big head, too weird, etc. 

The drawings' description:
1)A school girl
2)Neko
3)Sasuke and Naruto as beasts. 
4)Deidara (Naruto)
5)Sasori (Naruto)
6)Gaara (Naruto)
7)Luna (My original character)
8)Inspired by Avril's song, "Girlfriend".


Those bad drawings created by: Dzikrina Nurunisa
2009-February 2010

missing

Please, please forgive me
But I won't be home again
Maybe someday you'll look up
And barely conscious, you'll say to no one
Isn't something missing?



You won't cry for my absence, I know
You forgot me long ago
Am I that unimportant?
Am I that insignificant?

Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?



Even though I'm the sacrifice
You won't try for me, not now
Though I'd die to know you love me
I'm all alone



Isn't someone missing me?


Please, please forgive me
But I won't be home again
I know what you do to yourself
I breathe deep and cry out



"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?



Even though I'm the sacrifice
You won't try for me, not now
Though I'd die to know you love me
I'm all alone

Isn't someone missing me?

And if I bleed, I'll bleed
Knowing you don't care
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there

Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

Even though I'm the sacrifice
You won't try for me, not now
Though I'd die to know you love me
I'm all alone

Isn't something missing?


Isn't someone missing me?



xo~Dzikrina Nurunisa~ox

sweet sacrifice

It's true, we're a little insane.
But it's so clear,
Now that I'm unchained.


Fear is only in our mind, taking over all the time
Fear is only in our mind, but it's taking over all the time


You poor sweet innocent thing
Dry your eyes, and testify
You know you live to break me, don't deny
Sweet sacrifice


One day I'm gonna forget your name
And one sweet day, you're gonna drown in my lost pain.


Fear is only in our mind, taking over all the time
Fear is only in our mind, but it's taking over all the time


You poor sweet innocent thing
Dry you eyes, and testify
And oh, you love to hate me don't you, honey?
I'm your sacrifice


I dream in darkness
I sleep to die,
Erase the silence,
Erase my life,
Our burning ashes
Blacken the day,
A world of nothingness,
Blow me away.


Do you wonder why you hate?
Are you still too weak to survive your mistakes?


You poor sweet innocent things
Dry your eyes, and testify
You know you live to break me, don't deny
Sweet sacrifice.

10 february

10 February...

I felt so good from my wake up till this evening :). I hope it'll last 'till I sleep, and tomorrow, tomorrow and ever :). 
10 February isn't my special day, but I felt so special today. And, today is my father and my brother's birthday!They both have the same birthday(coincidently) so I'm glad to celebrate this day bcz we're celebrating for two member of our family. But I'm still thinking, they both are so similar. Their face, and their voice look much alike. They were even born in the same day. 


But sadly, right now we don't have a cake in our house. Bcz my father is still in Yogyakarta, working~ and my brother lives in Yogyakarta. Yogyakarta is my hometown, and there's no Senior High School in Townsite. Actually we can found it in Taliwang or Jereweh~but you know~we prefer go to our hometown than stay here. 


Thought that we can't have a celebration for this day, I could just give 'em a "Happy Birthday" greeting. Actually I wish I'm in Yogyakarta right now, cz I want to celebrate ittt . I wonder what will we do if we're all in Yogyakarta. We're go to soo many placess, go to the mall, we spend our time togetherr.. go everywhere, and elsewhere.. and go to a place(I love that place~ but we'll sure cause a fuse =p) 


Other than that, I was so happyy, bcz we have a bazaar this afternoon. I bought "empek-empek"(a traditional food from Palembang), Es Buah(it'd sounds weird in English) and a plastic glass of TEA! (tea is a common drink in Indonesia, but I love the bazaar's tea :p) 
But I was more glad to see Tyara and my classmates's band in front of us, on the stage. They played a song titled "Beraksi" by Kotak and Tyara was so good on the stage ( I think) :). 


That's today's "What so special". I hope this night will be a special night too, (maybe bcz I have no HW) and I hope I'll allowed to go to Tyara's house (for doing the Friday's math HW and for playing too of course!)
Okay




xo~Dzikrina Nurunisa~ox

call me when you're sober

Don't cry to me, if you love me
You would be here with me
You want me,come find me
Make up your mind


Should I let you fall
Lost it all?
So maybe you can remember yourself.
Can't keep believing
We're only deceiving ourself
And I'm sick of the lie
And you're too late.


Don't cry to me, if you love me
You would be here with me
You want me, come find me
Make up your mind


Couldn't take the blame
Sick with shame
Must be exhausting to lose your own game.
Selfishly hated, 
No wonder you're jaded,
You can't play the victim this time
And you're too late


Don't cry to me, if you love me
You would be here with me
You want me, come find me
Make up your mind


You never call me when you're sober
You only want it 'cause it's over
It's over


How could I have burned paradise?
How could I - you were never mine


So don't cry to me, if you love me
You would be here with me
Don't lie to me
Just get your things
I've made up your mind


One of Evanescence song titled "Call Me When You're Sober"


Here if you want to hear the song, or if you want to download it

lalala :)

Lalala.. :)


Lalalla.. today looks like I'm going to sing alongg...... a happy song.. because I'm so happy! 
There are so many bad things today..... like.. 
1) I was in a common mood from I woke up until I arrived at school.. finished my math teamwork.. and else-- it was so ordinary. But in some reason I felt so bad in Math lesson.. 
2) I was in a bad mood in Science... I was frightened and worried about my score.. I thought I'd get about 70... and that means I'd not pass..... but I was wrong! My score is a little bad but I'm happy that I've passed my physics test! (the lesson which I'm not good at)
3) My life came so ordinaryy thenn.. 


BUT in some secret reason, I was so happy, starts from the Religion Test. First, I thought the Religion Test (Islam of course, bcz I'm Moslem) wasn't so difficult as I've thought. And I bet everyone felt the same way. 
That's the small piece of my happiness today. Starts from the Religion.. 'till the bell rang.. I sang.. I mean I was happy, but I can't write the reason, because I don't want to. It's just nothing, never mind about it. If anyone who reads this blog is thinking about something, I know that is wrong! So don't mind about it, bcz you're totally wrong if you say I talked about someone. This is just about "I'm free of test!" and I've finished my civics work. 
And I've printed something that I wanted to print. 


Today is the time for "rolling seats" :)) Hahaha I don't know what is that in English. It's not about rolling our chairs.. everyone knows :)) In Indonesian that is "perubahan posisi tempat duduk" but we used to call it "rolling tempat duduk". 'Tempat duduk' is 'seat' in English, if someone who reads this blog wants to learn Indonesian. 


Hmm..okay. Oh, I'm forget to write about PANCAKE! Have I?
So, yesterday, Tyara and I tried to make a more leveled dish, start from making jelly, pudding, fried rice, and something made from bread and banana ( I'm forget what it is). And we wanted to make the other dish! 
Yes, Tyara loves to cook, she wants to be a famous chef in the future, and she watches "Ala Chef" starring Farah Queen. 
And I, don't really love to cook (because I can't) But I'd love it when I can do that! So I was so happy when we were succeed. I'm starting to love it, don't know how long it'll last. :p

One thing before I left this page, 
Yesterday, I heard there is a new band called "We Are The Fallen". It have formed by the former of Evanescence, but Amy Lee doesn't exist. The lead vocal is a woman from American Idol, Carly Smithson, but I think she's................ :( . One song of 'em is "Bury Me Alive". And If I could give a comment, I'd say that Evanescence is better than "We Are The Fallen". Amy Lee's voice can't be replaced by anyone. Amy Lee is much better than Carly's. And when I heard "Bury Me Alive", I could hear Carly's voice is just trying to copy Amy's, and that's no use. I love Amy Lee.. She is great and I hope Evanescence is still go on, with the other great songs.. or if the other member minds to dismissed the "Evanescence", I hope Amy Lee's still keep on singing on her own, creating her own songs and be a solo singer. I'd love to hear her songs!                               


Keep On, Amy Lee! :) 


(she's the one in the pic)






xo~Dzikrina Nurunisa~ox